I’m nervous again…

I’m nervous again…

My next ultrasound is on Monday and I’m starting to silently freak out again. Would I be bleeding and cramping if something bad happened? I guess there are miscarriages where you don’t do either of those two things and that’s what’s got me worried. What if somethings happened between now and the last ultrasound? I have been feeling better this week….

I wish I could just be happy already, but being pregnant is not as exhilarating as I thought it would be when I imagined it for the last two years. It’s more like nerve wracking and scary!

On the brighter side, my widget baby to the left actually looks like a baby and not so much like a reptile! 🙂

2 thoughts on “I’m nervous again…

  1. Your ultrasound will be fine! Of course you’re nervous. I was talking to Andrea today about how I am really scared about how my next pregnancy will be, if and when it happens, and she told me that even with two totally “normal” and healthy pregnancies, she was nervous for the early ultrasounds. She said being pregnant was just so weird that she never knew if everything was okay! She also told me that the worrying went away when she began to feel the baby moving, around 4 or 5 months. So, it will not be long before you too can have that as a reassurance. Andrea was so worried that she rented a doppler to listen to the heartbeat whenever she wanted. Have you thought about when you’re going to tell people (like coworkers, students, etc.)? Do you know your due date yet? I would love to help plan a baby shower for you at school, if that would be okay. I’m sure Carol will want to be involved too. Teachers give THE BEST baby showers, you know!

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  2. Rebecca,I’m really hoping to get some piece of mind soon. Maybe when I feel the baby move I won’t be so scared. In the meantime I’m just terrified that it’s too good to be true and that it will be taken away from me. Sometimes I think about renting a doppler, but right now I think it’s too soon. Maybe after this ultrasound on Monday I’ll get one…I’m due on October 4. I think I’m going to tell my AP, students, coworkers when we get back from spring break because I’ll be in the second trimester then. It just feels safer to wait until then. To be honest, I haven’t thought about a baby shower, yet! I haven’t talked to Carol about it either, so I have no idea if she’s thought about one. She knows how scared I am, so I think she’s also waiting for me to be more comfortable with the fact that I’m pregnant. Thanks for being so sweet and thinking of planning a shower for me! I have been touched by your kindness through this whole process. Also, don’t think it hasn’t slipped my mind that you’re going to start TTC again this month! I’ve got my fingers crossed for you!

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