Alright. First, I want to say that this blog is private and people read it, but it’s still just my personal journal. Well, a personal journal that kind of comments back to me. What I’m really trying to say, though, is that if any of you who know me IRL (in real life) and mention anything I post on this blog I will totally deny it. 100% I will call you a liar.
Well, except for the parts where everyone already knows I’m infertile and going through IVF. That’s not so secret.
BUT…this post is. This post is very very secret. Not even Matt knows this- he’s not invited. LOL!
Back to my secret that is so secret that I may just delete this confession after a day or two.
Today, I was feeling a little lightheaded. I went up to take a shower and took some things out of the cabinet when I saw a shit-load of pregnancy tests I frequently pee on for kicks.
So I did what any infertile girl who just had an IVF cycle would do- I peed on it.
Don’t say anything. Don’t congratulate me or even take it as a sign, but…..
It has the lightest of light pink lines.
It could be my imagination. It could be leftover HCG in my system from triggering the eggs (even though it’s supposed to be gone by now). It could be a bad test. Or, it could be my twins snuggling in.
I don’t know.
But, I have a very light pink.
I’ve never had a very light pink line- or any lines for that matter.
Don’t utter a word out loud about this! I don’t want to jinx it!
(Elaine, this includes you- DO NOT TELL MOM OR I WILL KILL YOU!! Very gently, of course. You are my sister, after all.)