My wedding day is the happiest day of my life. I mean, I was a complete nervous wreck (from all the planning, not the actual getting married part). I had been planning this day since I was a child. It couldn’t have been more perfect. Actually, it was so much better than I could have ever planned for….
I think the feeling that sicks out the most to me from wedding day was the sheer joy and hope I had for my new future family. I had waited so long to meet the love of my life so I could have my beautiful 3 boys. I just couldn’t believe my time was finally here! I felt like I had waited so long for this chapter in my life.
Sometimes, when I feel sad about this whole Infertility “pile of shit” that has landed in my life, I think about that day and those emotions I was feeling. I was so naive. Not at any moment had I thought that Infertility was even an option in our lives. That is the last time I truly remember feeling fresh hope for my family-to-be.
to be continued…